When everything crumbles.

i dont understand what you want. i never have. i dont think i will.
you dont know what you want...neither did I.
confused.scared.never being able to before. i let myself fall because you promised to catch me. because i TRUSTED you.

you stood at the bottom, arms open wide. welcoming.
every word of love luring me closer to the end where i thought you'd stand.
I fell.
200 ft...
100 ft...
30 ft...
20 ft...
then you walked away.
i fell.
and shattered.
but dont worry.
im done. i can never fall for the fear of shattering, like you shattered me. i told you i couldnt trust. i told you i saw it fail. i told you i hurt because my parents hurt. i told you i had problems trusting. i told you i was scared to let go. to put down my guard. i told you i dint want to hurt like they hurt. it was too much. i told you.you promised to protect me. you promised to be there. i dont care if it was just as a friend. but you promised. you promised to be my security. i only had you you were my only security. you promised and you broke it and you broke me. i was scared and i still let go. i blame you.
but i cant blame you. youre so niave. so quick to love because you've never had any string of affection. im sorry i trusted you. i should have never. i was naive. it makes two
i understand now.
i cant forgive yet.
but im done.
finished.
and youre forever gone.